Do you think that when Jacob wrestled with God he got up and walked away the same person? Or was he changed forever from the encounter???
I posted this on Facebook and a friend replied, “Not only changed forever, but with an apparent physical “flaw,” a permanent mark from the encounter to remind him that although it was very good, it was also hard and painful.”
I guess what I was thinking of was more of the inner change from an encounter with God. You see, I have been wrestling with God, lately, and physically I do feel open, raw and permanently changed. But, more than that…there is a deeper change within my heart that will never be the same. It too, feels open and exposed. And profoundly not the same. I just wondered if that might be how Jacob felt when he got up….like an entirely different Jacob. I know that I am forever changed.
Have you ever wrestled with God? How did you feel afterwards? How did it change you?
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I saw this on FB… I, too, am wrestling with God lately. I know I will never be the same. But I don't want to be, though. I am not sure, yet, who exactly I will be and how I will feel, but I have faith that I will be forever changed in a good way and I find comfort that God knows the outcome.
Thanks Jenn, for your thoughtful comment. I too, am glad I am not the same! sometimes I wish the struggle wasn't so painful!
but maybe if I didn't wrestle and just met God….hmmm. I will have to think more on that…
I've been wrestling with God for the past two years. Some times more than others. My faith is stronger than words can express now. Two years ago- I'd say yeah i have faith but know i'm a believer. I will never be the same, and have learned so much through this journey. I expect to learn even more in the future as well!
My wrestling has left me feeling loved and protected and very safe.
I'm learning a different level of trust that I have ever known.
I so appreciate you all sharing with me how your wrestling with God has changed you.
Thanks for being part of my faith journey and blog friends!
Kym